Hey My actual name is Fynn Zerá, but once my best friend gave me that nickname, Zerafynn, which i changed into Seraphyn. Tayenn is the 2. name, which my mother had, when she was a child. I feel more conected to her family then to my fathers. I'm 17 years old now, was born the 27.1.1999 in a little town in England. But I lived there for just about 2 months, then we moved to Germany where I still live. I was raised in a bilingually, because my father didn't speak german. But they got divorced, when I was 13 and my father went back to England, to his home town. I just met him a few times, since that, but it's okay how it is. I love motorbikes and rock, metal, emo and punk music. I like tats and piercings and I enjoy reading. I play keyboard and like watching films or series/animes. Hope that is enough that has to be said about my person. You'll get some more facts when reading some entries. I you want to ask anything, just write me a message! Peace Seraphyn

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Hey This blog won't just be about sad things, but I created it, 'cause I need to tell someone, who doesn't know me, my ex-boyfriend or the whole situation. He, (Johannes) just broke up with me this tuesday, april the 26 in 2016. I feel destroyed, crashed on the ground. I didn't even do so much wrong and he still loves me, like I still love him. Some friends, who know the whole situation and the two of us and who know him and know me also said, that it wasn't a real and explainable reason to quit this relationship. It's okay, that he did that. It hurts yes and he's really stupid, that he won't tell the real reason to me, but well, I have to live with it. I'll just try to forget him...It's saturday, the 30.4.16 now and I feel different today, because many things happened. We actually wanted to make some party on 'fathersday', which is the 5.5.16 and so we created a What's App group with 16 members, also Johannes. For me, that was ok, I would just behave normal and objective towards him but suddenly, they kicked me out of that group, without saying anything. My best friend (he's called Jan and is in that group) tried to convince them, how stupid it was and also told Johannes how mean he behaved. I was just destroyed IN the ground. Like, you began to accept the situation how it is, you still lay on the ground, and then, the person, that you still love, comes and kickes you in the face. Jan got me off that stupid shit and he got me off from Johannes, just by doing something ese, that I wouldn't think so much about that. And it kinda worked. We first just talked about other stuff and then we tried a new sort of zigs (Camel, even if it's a dromedary on the box :D ) and we drank some beer and scotch (which we both really like) and we talked while he cared for me. Later, he brought me home but trying to sleep got hard again, because I always thought of Johannes and all that, what has happenend. I slept from just 2am to 5am but I'm awake now. I tried to do different things, to keep me off thinking about him. I talked to friends and thought of a plan of revenge for him having kicked me out of that group and having pulled all those 'friends' into our fight which destroyed a part of my circle of friends. But maybe it just showed their real faces. Maybe it even has been god, that that has happened 'cause now, it's clear, they don't want me just because, yeah.. dunno..Hey, it's getting better right know, with everything that happends and with every hour that passes over. Peace!

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